Shadow here. I think I'm the worst case here lol.

[Shadow]

Hi guys, I'm a veteran of the US Army and been out for a couple of years. I've been dealing with anxiety and insomnia the whole time. Last month I started talking Buspar given to me through the VA and I believe that started this mess. I stupidly took a med of a friend's "sleeping aid" that happen to be Seroquel ...I soon found myself at the local hospital and they suggest I stay at the mental health clinic. They gave me 5mg of Paxil and 5m of Ambien. I had a bad reaction to both of them. I took another 5mg of Paxil and left the following day. I didnt refill my script because of the horrid reaction. Days later my insomnia got worst and I got desperate and popped a Trazadone. Had a bad reaction to that as well and the following days popped a Rameron. Felt tired the entire day. I haven't touched a single med since. A month later I felt my genitals were numbing and it was hard to get an erection. Tested with porn, no problem. Shortly after that failed. I kissed my libido and emotions goodbye. I found surviving depressants site a month too late. On that site to my horror I found out about the curse that is PSSD. I fit the descriptions to a T. I can still get a erection with some work. Not completely numb yet. The worst is the lack of emotions. In retrospect, I wish I would of stayed on the meds and weened of them properly. I feel like a dead man walking, like my life turned into a living nightmare. Ironically I knew about PFS month prior and felt sorry for those guys. We might have it worst than them, maybe not. I think I'm the worst case here and if I make it back to baseline, anyone could.

[Maxins92]

Hello PSSD forum,

I just joined the forum today. My story is that I took SSRI for 12 days, already after the first day I got sick with fever and sore throat, thought it was just a cold (still dont know). Anyway, I noticed the ED after 3 days, got really scared and thats when the nightmare begins. I stayed on SSRI:s for 12 days more but nothing changed, so my GP switched me to Wellbutrin, stayed on it for 23 days almost with the highest dose, I noticed some libido came back which have actually stayed ever since, but erections were all gone, no spontaneous or morning erections. After I gave up Wellbutrin I decided to stop ALL meds to see what happened, nothing changed for 3 weeks. So I went to a urologist which of course said this is in my mind and started me on 5 mg cialis daily, which helps somehow, can still have intercourse with my girlfriend but I feel that my Penis is really not hard as before and sometimes it fails completly. I would wait another 3 months until i decided to look for a doctor that believed in this condition. Thats when I found DR Irwin goldstein in San diego. I scheduled and appointment with him 1 month ahead (I live in europe so its a looong way to go from where I live). To make a long story short, When I got to San diego Dr Goldstein did all of his tests on me, including the Grey scale doppler with caverject injection, and for his surprise and my surprise too he said I had moderate corporal fibrosis (not peyroinies, but fibrous tissue inside the corpora), I asked how can this happen after 12 days on SSRI:s, he simply said "I have no idea" He recommended PRP treatment and injection therapy, I refused Injection so we agreed on PRP and daily cialis 5 mg. After I came back home I was of course very frustrated and angry since fibrosis is irreversible. I went to a really good hospital where I live and they were also chocked about the news. after 1 month the urologist wanted me to take an MRI of my penis to see if the fibrosis had progressed or if it stopped. I went to London Clinic to have an MRI with caverject (erect penis), After 4 days I got the news from the London clinic, a very good specialist named DR David Ralph told me he could not see any fibrosis what so ever on the scan. This made me really confused whether I have it or not and since I still have ED I do not what to belive. Must add that I have taken ALL possible tests, Testosterone, free T, DHT, Prolactin, Cortisol and ALL the blood tests, I think it was 74 different tests on my body and all came back OK.

[Coraggio]

Hi Shadow and Maxins92, I regret to see you here. But don' t lose hope, you are not alone, we are a family here. If you feel very bad, anhedonic, without normal feelings, without a normal sexuality after SSRI exposure you are in the right place to share your experience. A good suggestion is to try stay strong mind, don' t stress too much, try to relax as you can. Avoid too much addictive behaviour like smoking, too much pornografy, ecc because don' t help.We gonna find a solution. Some people are recovered from pssd, others can have "window of normality" every now and then. So we are not broken, we need to find a way to revert this mess and we will do. Big hugs for you

[fema4psyciatrists]

How long have you been off them? Some people's brains are able to recover within time periods of like under a year type of thing. As lonely as this living torture sexual murder is, I hope you get to recover.

[Shadow]

Hey fema4psyciatrists! I've been off the meds for a month now. I wasn't on the my cocktail for long at all. I've heard of horror stories of people only taking the drugs one time and not being well for years. I'm hoping I recover as well. I don't believe this is permanent, at least it might be semi-permanent. I can live with that...not really. I believe there's a cure.

[Shadow]

Thanks for the words of encouragement Coraggio!

[Ghost]

Shadow, you took 6 psych drugs in under a week. That will do a lot to destabilize. You might be okay after a bit more time. For now I'd just wait it out for a bit and see what happens. Glad to have you on the forum, and sorry to hear about your story. Also thank you for your military service!

[Shadow]

Thank you Ghost. I hope I didn't commit suicide taking all those meds. I pretty much CT all of them. I should be not able to talk or type for that matter.

[Shadow]

Is it too late to reinstate and does that correct PSSD and other cognitive symptoms?

[Shadow]

Guys please someone give me some insight. i've been dealing with some crazy symptoms and need relief. I feel like I'm losing my mind and my body along with it.