Mirtazapine and maca

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I am currently taking escitalopram 10mg. not by choice but I have no other option because I have an irritable intestine and I'm a little afraid of using other molecules. I take it to relieve the discomfort I feel after eating and to relieve the stress and ruminations due to irritable bowel which leaves me no day of respite, the psychological suffering due to PSSD and to regulate my sleep which because of my digestion and perhaps something else (medication taken in the past which could have disrupted, other condition) is out of phase. I wouldn't say that I really suffer from insomnia except on certain days when I can't fall asleep before 5 a.m., 6 a.m. sometimes until 10 a.m. and some times when an event, an argument with someone for example, I get so angry that I ruminate and I can go 2 or 3 days without sleeping, before the pressure goes down again. A few years ago I stopped escitalopram and tried mirtazapine, I can't remember the dosage, I think 15mg. I was taking maca and I think pure l-citrulline so not citrulline malate. I remember being surprised one day after finishing my fitness workout at the gym, I was in the shower at the gym and I started to get very aroused and got an erection and had lubrication again. I came home and I couldn't hold back for long before masturbating without watching porn. I didn't last very long before ejaculating, I think 2 or three minutes, the excitement was so strong. unfortunately I had to stop taking mirtazapine because I had gastric reflux all the time and the constipation was bothering me a lot. Next week, I'm going to see another psychiatrist who specializes in sexology. I'm going to talk to her about PSSD and lithium. I'm crossing my fingers that she's not psychorigid or that she offers me lambipol instead. My mother was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I myself experienced mood fluctuations when I was a teenager and in my twenties. I went through phases where I was very extroverted and very happy to phases where I felt turned off. I no longer spoke, I was introverted, I no longer knew how to do my job. in fact I was a hairdresser and suddenly I no longer knew how I should do my cuts. However, I was a very good hairdresser but in the down periods, it was like I lost everything I had learned. this lasted for a few years. later I had what I believe were phases of hypersexuality. phases where suddenly I was making plans, I had the impression that everything was possible and then suddenly, the flow subsided. the positive phases were much shorter than the negative phases. now since I took escitalopram for 2 years my libido has completely disappeared, but I still have phases where I feel like everything is better, I make plans again and then suddenly, I lose motivation, dark thoughts return, etc.