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magnilo wrote:nortriptyline does sound interesting also for its activating properties it seems.. never tried it unfortunately!
wellbutrin i tried 2 years ago and it made me snap at coworkers more easily.. cant remember if it did anything else.. nothing noticeable probably
i remember reading multiple times that mirtazapine made people cum almost spontaneously/unwillingly. im a bit horrified by the reports of endless eating though...

Mirtzapine 15mg was ok, and was helping to sleep BUT 30mg made me cum spontaneously/unwillingly with a limb dick!!!
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I probably really should give it a try also because I really have no issues with overeating and am skinny by default.. Also Ive been trading that it has a tendency to make some user a bit manic, which is an extreme manifestation of enthusiasm I believe.. But 30hours of half life sounds really debilitating... I'm already a slow poke!
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Mirtazapine makes me eat like a pig. I have gained over 30 pounds in a few months.
Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live. :(
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today was a good day, i was at the sea. i swam away from the shore and held on a buoy. i noticed there were little yellow fishes twirling around the seashells that were holding on the buoy. the orange of the buoy with the deep blue of the sea below were intensely beautiful and i became aware of the situation. later that day i felt great enthusiasm reading a book and felt great eagerness for the story to unfurl! these days ive been taking 2.5mg every other day because i fundamentally didnt have enough with me.. havent taken anything else for the past week, no DHEA/pregnenolone/testosterone and no other types of supplement, and ive had morning erections every day. Its a definite good trend and i hope it stays that way... I also have to say that i have been vacationing. this means a lot of phisical activity in the sun and little idling in front of a screen. also ive abstained from porn and masturbation.

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two days later ive masturbated and it felt extremely good. graphic details ahead. very strong erection, sensation, and amount/quality of semen. that was my first time in 8 days of abstinence, no porn, exercise, sun, and about 2.5mg selegiline a day. i am not completely sure, but i think i did not have any morning erection the day after. could this be a clue?

All in all i think selegiline is proving really beneficial. its slightly energizing both phisically and mentally, and i have had no need or wish to take naps in the past weeks. also im not sure if its the selegiline or the abstinence, but ive had a lot of nocturnal erections the past week (without testo/dhea/etc)
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its been about 5 weeks that im taking selegiline at doses of 5-10mg daily.
ive tried 20mg daily a couple of times but could not tell any difference: it all feels the same past 5mg imo
i think it is energizing, but its a different type of energy.
its not zest or interest, its mere "i dont need a nap today"
in my impression its making my depression worse, if possible!

i dont think ive had morning erections in the past week or so, but i have also been masturbating daily. I think this is one of the prime culprits i need to enforce!
also ive been taking alternating about 15mg DHEA / 2.5 mg Testogel. Ive tried also pregnenolone and progesterone very anarchically tbh but i am under the impression DHEA works better for sexuality, while pregn mentally
the week where i had normal morning erections i was abstaining from masturbation, porn, had stopped the creams and was just taking 2.5mg every other day or so. I think i will try to reproduce that scenario from tomorrow.

Also, i have seen my doc and told him how selegiline goes and he said "but its good!" when i told him i dont drink coffee and coke anymore and i dont need to take 2 naps a day anymore either, lol.

so the next will be selegiline 5mg daily + 10mg vortioxetine. He has a couple persons on it with my same concerns and he mentioned both said no side effects whatsoever on libido besides slight decrease in interest, which tbh is totally fine by me.


edit: ive also found out recently i have a slight case of phimosis and short frenulum. google it. fundamentally it means i can not sheathe my penis completely during intercourse because the skin is too tight (phimosis) and the frenulum too short (frenulum breve). it was not a severe case but after documenting myself a bit on the internet i realized it applied. so i ordered a set of dilaters (think of those ugly rings people put in their lobes, but for your penis) and have been using those for a while with pretty good results for the phimosis. the skin is now much more loose and i can retract it much better, but the frenulum breve is still there. Ive been to the urologist and he said it is not a severe case but it is a case, and if i have difficulties with reaching orgasm it can be a plausible cause, and its up to me to decide whether i want to surgically fix it or not. i think i will but not in the next month.

Ive decided to report this because even if its not relevant to pssd i think its honest to share this information in order to have a realistic picture. and also the fact that im probably mildly depressed. I think its important that every one of us reports a honest, introspective picture of himself
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over the past 2-3 weeks ive been taking

2.5mg selegiline every 3 days - works good for anergia
90mg pine bark extract + 1.5g arginine - seems to work for erections but im not sure as ive started it at the same time as the penis pump
5g of maca - good stuff in general, has a ton of benefits and its natural
and using the penis pump ive ordered

the penis pump really does wonders for erection quality. i dont think it alters anything in spontaneity of erections.
ive only lately realized that i fundamentally have no erections over the day. i kinda tought it was normal, but ive googled it and apparently its extremely not normal at all.
so i dont know what to think of it. ive always tought my libido is high, but its more of a mental thing with no phisical consequence...
although ive fallen back in my vicious cirle of porn use twice a day, which for sure is detrimental.

im fairly sure that if i can finally manage to cut back on porn and videogames, this minimalistic and fairly """natural""" protocol could prove beneficial.
also i really want to take a break from constantly thinking about the situation

reminder to self: things i intend to try: copper, dark chocolate, licorice
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quick update since its been a while
have been using the penis pump about every other day while i take a bath
also been taking pine bark extract in the form of pycnogenol (100mg) and 2-3-4grams of l-arginine

my erection are SO MUCH IMPROVED. really, they feel much harder and firmer.
i can reliably have sex if i have abstained for a while, but to make sure on these days i take also about 2mg of cialis
also it happened that i had to stop using the pump for a week and also didnt have my supps, and the benefits didnt go away in one week
i now think of the penis as an atrophied organ that needs to be trained to go back to work properly.

anyhow i still have issues with orgasms (and besides that, low drive and zest in life, but thats another story). that part is probably mental and/or a mere personality trait. i doubt there is much to do and i also doubt it is imperative to change that since each one of us is different.

all in all im just really happy that i could improve the quality and firmness of my erections with simple excercise, suction and some aminoacids and some extract from a tree that grows even in my garden
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Good to hear you are doing better man :)
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Jaxx wrote:Good to hear you are doing better man :)
thanks !

update:
havent posted much lately, so i tought it would make sense to give a quick update
(keep in mind that i also take about 10mg of isotretinoin (accutane) a week, which albeit very low dose, is still risky)

lately ive been feeling pretty good,interestingly. my life situation did not change at all and i cant pin point it to any major positive events.
very little gut issues, little anxiety, no longer feel the need for a nap each afternoon (not each day at least). i feel like my brain "works better" and sometime i even have some sparks of creativity! i wonder if its just depression lifting

end of october/beginning of november i had tried 3 weeks of agomelatine/25mg+nsi189/30mg a day. while on it i dont think it did much, but i have the feeling nsi is partially responsible for the good feeling once you come off it. happened the first time i tried it, 2 or 3 years ago. i think nsi is a substance worth trying but i dont think it makes sense to stay on for longer periods.

in the past month ive been taking just l arginine, pycnogenol, vitaminD+magnesium+zinc, and recently ive been trying cistanche . soall natural, so to say, which i find quite comforting lol
i dont know if its just placebo or wishful thinking, but i have the impression that taking cistanche improves my glans sensitivity. edging is really much harder now, and tbh i sometime fuck it up, which was never a problem before and is really new for me!
the whole nitric oxide + antioxidants pathway seems really promising. i also want to look more into DHT, investigating glycine and creatine.
i remember that i had a window with great erections last spring and i think it was due to some protein powder which had probably both of them added .

i also keep using a bathmate pump on and off (much less religiously than at the beginning) but it still helps a lot, as does abstaining from porn and masturbation
i tend to reach max 1 week off before "relapsing", but i can notice a huge difference. so abstinence is really helpful for me, and its well documented in chinese medicine that one should not "release" too much.

all in all i just feel im on a positive path and i hope i can make it last!
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Glad to hear it man! it's nice to read positive updates for a change
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