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monthly update due :)

discarded the trazodone/wellbutrin combo because i tought it wasnt necessary
i do like the trazodone for sleep at super low doses, as it makes me sleep like a rock and i wake up refreshed and without any sort of sleepiness during the day
wellbutrin made me slightly cranky and moody and i just didnt see a point in continuing it, since at this time i frankly do not feel any type of depression and it has been so for a while (fingers crossed!)

discontinued mk677 and ostarine which i feel have had a beneficial effect overall. i can see the vascularity on my penis is improved. i wonder if it will stay that way.
Sometime i also apply a bit of DHT gel on the shaft and it results in a half day long improvement of libido, somehow.
also stopped taking my usual ZMA,arginine and pycnogenol for a while and i dont see a marked difference, so im taking a break from that aswell.
i use the bathmate way less regularly than previously (due to the fact that i dont always have a bathtub available and its summer anyway - showers!)

other than that i went to the university hospital to get a hormone panel and make sure my hormones were in check after the ostarine, which can be a bit suppressive, and everything was okay besides a bit of high prolactine. like 1 unit above max value. i explained my issue to the the endocrinologist (with the usual hard to read expression of "is this guy paranoid, is his story legit, or both?") and he doesent think prolactin can be a culprit for the erectile issues or lack of spontaneous erections. did one last blood test of which i will soon have the results and depending on that, if it is still the same, nothing will happen. so as usual i will have narrated my embarassing story to another professional who has no ideas of what to do, most probably doesent believe me, and is not interested in trying anything experimental. whatever.

at least i got a script for cialis out of it

one interesting anectode is, i took 10mg cialis on the weekend and over the next two days 20mg of isotretinoin: that is double as usual, because i realized i didnt take it for a while precedently and my acne was coming back
what i experienced over these four days was a much improved erectyle function that what just 10mg cialis would give me. I think the high dose of isotretinoin paradoxally played a role in this.
I remember people on some forum saying that the issued started ONCE QUITTING accutane. so i wonder maybe taking higher doses of it could kickstart something?
will repeat this at some point and see if it happens again

also last weekend i did mdma crystals after 2 years without and it was a blast. did a good routine for effects maximizing (reversible MAOI 2 days in advance to elevate serotonin levels, antioxidants [nac and fat-diluted-glutathione] during and after) and after 3 days i have absolutely no hangover. during these three days i found it was much easier to achieve orgasms, probably its the low serotonin. sadly i didnt have any mushrooms so i couldnt replicate that much talked about combo that supposedly healed a couple members.

maybe next time
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quick update - pretty annoying times here but nothing too bad and ive got to get through it
not really interested in anything sexual atm so ive kinda let the whole thing go for a while
not much changed, mood was good until couple weeks ago but not winter is here and i can feel it already
thinking of jumping back on something (trazodone? agomelatine? vortioxetine?) but also just considering trying to pull through and see if it can make me grow, but its hard sometimes
i tried vyvanse for a couple of times but dont really like it. i felt weird. prefer something on the serotonin side to give me a brighter outlook on life and smoothen social interactions.
sexually it was going fine until 2 months ago but now i feel i dont have morning boners anymore.

giving this whole thing a rest made me understand how much it is all based on your mood and feeling fine with being in your own skin, thing that comes and goes for me pretty often
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very long time no update, so i tought id drop a few lines
over the past months ive been dosing pretty regularly nsi, bromantane and low dose vortioxetine for a couple of months
after that summer came, so i had time off work and no need to perform: as you can probably tell from the substances, the focus these last months was to improve memory, concentration and generally cognition.
a month ago i prepared a new batch of capsules with just maca (which is my usual filler) and 2.5mg of vortioxetine, and took those for a while. after a couple of weeks and to today i added 150mg bupropion i had laying around: i found it to work great with vortioxetine, giving a very pro cognitive combo. The little vortioxetine i added fixes the nervousness of the bupropion. I wanna give long term bupropion a shot: i never did because id made me snappy and nervous and prone to mood swings, but im confident that with 2.5mg of vortioxetine it will be good.

I am now starting 300mg bupropion and will taper off the vortioxetine after a while just to see how it is "by itself". Most likely ill try to stick to that combo until next june when im done with studies/work: i think itmy best solution to both address pssd and my fatigue / cognitive deficits while giving a proper trial to a substance that is generally seen as "THE" pro sexual AD$

just wanted to post a couple of lines as a reminder to myself and to say hi :)
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hi folks, just realized my last "diary entry" was 2 years ago so i think its time to log a bit of what happened in those past 700days, for the sake of having a semi decent log i can go back to from time to time to find information and maybe help someone.

Id say that recently the biggest problems have been the following:
  • -no/very rare/random (spontaneous) erections
    -delayed orgasm / hard to reach (that is a minor issue i believe)
    -lack of energy, enthusiasm, and above all, DRIVE.
and, last but not least, and perhaps its the thing that worries me the most
  • LIBIDO: i have always been very horny even with pssd, but recently i just dont care anymore. i dont think its my current partners fault, because i notice i also dont look at girls on the street as much. honestly this bit has me worried.
so all in all, the picture is kind of the same as it was years ago, maybe i just got used to it.
I feel my libido is slowly sinking, same with spontaneous erections. Mood wise im more stable, the emotional blunting has been something i dont think about anymore, but i feel a bit sluggish mentally all the time.
All in all, as you can see, i have not been too worried about my situation, which may be good in a certain sense, but does not mean the issues are over.

I think ive tried plenty of stuff but without being patient enough: for example, i never gave bupoprion a "clean and honest" trial, like 2 months of simply taking it on its own and being patient. Same for SJW, which i took briefly and discarded.

So thats what im trying to do now:


its been 1 and a half years that ive discontinued accutane (isotretinoin), which i was taking at super low dosages (10mg a WEEK). It didnt change a thing, My doctor told me that if in 18months i didnt notice a change, its very likely it does not play a role in it.

Ive started taking SJW (hypericum perforatum) extract LI 160, been 2 weeks at 900mg (but the past week i scaled down a bit to avoid phototoxicity): the first week i noticed a bit more social anxiety, avoiding eye contact and the sorts, and a bit more emotional coldness on my side. I also was a bit more unhappy with my situation. I did have strong morning erections, but didnt get to try having intercourse, so its hard to say.
I plan to take sjw another 2 weeks at least, in any case it should upregulate 5ht1a (cited from memory) , so even if i dont feel anything right now, i may have a nice surprise afterwards, fingers crossed.

If this doesent work, ill do a clean, long term trial of wellbutrin (bupropion) (2months at least). I feel ive never insisted enough with this medication and its one of the most cited ones to treat ssri side effects, so i think it would be very rational to do that without blunting it with trazodone or vortioxetine as i did previously to "blunt" its "edginess": i can still do that, later.

Together with that, i just started taking cialis (tadalafil) at 5mg every other day or so. I remember i had read a paper which mentioned that regular use could restore regular erections in a percentage of lucky individuals (1/3 or 2/3? i think i cited the paper in another post if anyones interested). Honestly i feel the more i take cialis, the least it works, but im gonna stick with it and see how it goes.

So all in all i just wanna go full throttle on libido for a while: hormones wise im doing ok, normal panels, so i would avoid messing with that if theres no need. Im fairly sure i could do TRT but thats a big committment and id rather there was some other way. It also wreaks havoc on my oily skin so im really reluctant.

Supplements wise im not taking anything, considering trying damiana and going back to my "standard stack staples", maca, pycnogenol, l-arginine etc.

for any toughts of question feel free to get in touch, would also love to hear opinions on things i could try
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