JustOnlyHope wrote: ↑Tue Feb 09, 2021 5:29 am
No, It's not like this. I've never had depression. I do a lot things in my life. I was never depressed or even never think about suicide.
Depression is not defined by "thinking about suicide". I was depressed two years ago but I didn't think about suicide at all.
That all shit now make me feel I am just in only fucking nightmare and that's not real.
This sounds like depression, for instance (NB: I don't say you are depressed, this is far from enough to diagnose depression - I am just pointing a "non suicidal" expression of depression)
Regarding recovery. I'm not saying you wrong guys, I believe you've got really well knowledge, however as I said my story with buspirone(it has the same action to 5ht1a as Trazodone) so it shows sometimes is just only luck. It is like some drug/suplemment just only trigger some action in brain and sometimes people are just lucky, but it doesn't really matter what the drug is. Look how many people recovered and how many different/not related things that was. I really wish you all guys were cured, we don't fucking deserved. Period.
I don't challenge your reaction to buspirone. You had it, whatever the cause, period. I say:
1) You may be overthinking this reaction (why would 5HTA1 be the cause of it? buspirone action is complex)
2) Trazodone has antidepressant effects and can help people with some depression - This is a much more logical explanation of your improvement than whatever with 5HT1A, even if nobody will ever be able to tell which explanation is correct. But anyway, if you are better with trazodone, do you really need this explanation? Just forget receptors and enjoy improvement?
Escitalopram, 10mg/day, Jan-May 2019. Fluoxetine, May-Sept 2019. Mirtazapine 7,5mg/day, November 2019-January 2020. Escitalopram, 5mg/day, Feb-May 2020.
Symptoms: sexual & emotional numbness